7 Months

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What a month.  You never.hold.still.  … ever.20140731-212825

Evelyn, this month you learned to crawl, and our lives have completely changed.  Nothing is safe from you.

You never want to be held or sit still.  It has made church a little rough.  I mean, I can’t really blame her.  I’d rather explore under the pews than listen to high counsel speakers too.

Evelyn Faye 7 month baby

You are obsessed with the hymn book.  When it’s open, you love to grab and smack it as hard as you can.  We usually get some interesting looks.

Evelyn Faye 7 month baby

Sometimes I’m not sure why we even bother trying to go since we spend more time in the halls than in the service.

Evelyn Faye 7 month baby

You’ve hit a major growth spurt this month, length-wise.  A lot of your clothes are still 3 month and 6 months, but your legs are getting so long.  No surprise about that though.

Evelyn Faye 7 month baby

You’ve started pulling yourself up to stand, so we had to lower your crib stat!  I’ve never seen you look prouder than the first time you did it.  You were so pleased.  I was not.

Evelyn Faye 7 month baby

You’ve been able to spend so much time with your cousins over at grandma’s house this summer.  Both Molly & Dylan love you SO much.  They love to play with you.  You love the attention.

Evelyn Faye 7 month baby

Evelyn Faye 7 month baby

Evelyn Faye 7 month baby

We took you on a house-hunting adventure with us, and you enjoyed exploring and snooping as much as mom & dad.

Evelyn Faye 7 month baby

This month we got stuck in a ridiculous traffic jam, at which time you decided you were starving and it would be good to let me know by screaming your brains out.  I whipped out my mad mom skills, made a bottle, fed you, AND took a selfie to prove it, all whilst driving.

Evelyn Faye 7 month baby

Water always makes you the happiest.  It’s the cure-all for your moodiness.  You’re a little sea creature.

Evelyn Faye 7 month baby

Dance time with Aunt Heidi is also one of your favorite activities.  Your smile goes on for days.

Evelyn Faye 7 month baby

Evelyn Faye 7 month baby

Sometimes I get a little sad because I think you don’t look anything like me.  But then I remember we have the same nose, and that’s enough.

Evelyn Faye 7 month baby

You got a bug bite on your cheek that got infected and turned into a big cyst.  The doctor had to drain it with a scalpel.  It was the saddest thing.  It took 3 nurses to hold you down.

Evelyn Faye 7 month baby

Your night time sleeping has improved so much.  We don’t have to swaddle you or blindfold you at night (naps are another story).

Evelyn Faye 7 month baby

We’ve turned a corner with the dogs, especially Buster.  When you go to sleep (at night AND naps) Buster will go to the side of your crib and beg and whine until we put him in there with you.  Then he just snuggles up to you.

Evelyn Faye 7 month baby

Evelyn Faye 7 month baby

 

Evelyn, sometimes being your mum is a challenge.  Sometimes I feel like giving up.  It’s really hard.  Some mornings when you’re up bright and early, and I’m exhausted beyond belief, I beg to Heavenly Father to give me the strength to make it through the day and not take my struggles out on you.  It’s those days that you make me laugh the most, that you smile the most, and that you make me proud the most.  I love you sugar drop.  Thanks for keeping me humble (and active!).

 

6 Months

On June 23rd we celebrated Evelyn’s half birthday.
I’m not really sure where the time has gone.  I remember marveling that she was 6 WEEKS.  There are days where I feel this ache in my heart for my snuggly newborn baby.  But most days I get really excited watching her grow and progress.  She gets more and more fun with each sunrise.

Evelyn Faye 6 months

I feel like we have seen the fasted changes in growth during this past month.  The most major one, sitting up.

Evelyn Faye 6 monthsThe month was really fast-paced for our family.  We sold our house, packed & moved, then went on vacation.  I could tell that all the extra chaos put a little extra stress on Evelyn.  She was a little crankier than usual the week following the move.  As we are getting back into routine, her temperament is greatly improving.

I get jealous when I hear about how good my friends’ babies sleep at night.  Most babies of this age are pretty much sleeping through the night.  With all the chaos and new places in the past month, it has really made nights a rough time.  We are working really really hard to get her back to peaceful slumbers.  But for now I can say I’m extra grateful that she is an excellent napper!

Evelyn Faye 6 months

Evelyn has changed so much physically in the last month.  She is looking more and more like herself.  She’s growing tall.  She is almost in the 80th% for height.  Not that we’re really surprised by that.  It’s hard to tell since she doesn’t really like to hold her legs straight out for more than .47 of a second.

Evelyn Faye 6 months

As my mother-in-law told me, “You won’t know what to do when you actually have a normal baby!”  When Evelyn is awake, she is moving 100% of the time.  She is the wiggliest child on this planet.

Evelyn Faye 6 months

Another surprising fact about the babe, she LOVES to wear her sunglasses.  And every time she wears them, I get asked/told, “How do you get her to keep those on? My baby would NEVER have worn sunglasses!”  I don’t know.  My best guess is she realizes they actually keep her light blue eyes from hurting in the sun.  But who really knows.  All we know is that she is adorable.

Evelyn Faye 6 months

I talked about this in the Disneyland post, but Evelyn loves being carried around in the Ergo.  She loves to see what is going on around her.  She never gets fussy when she’s in the carrier.  She’s one happy clam.

Evelyn Faye 6 months A new thing Evelyn has started doing is feeing peoples’ faces.  It’s her way of greeting someone and learning about them.  It reminds me of Hook.  There you are Peter!  Sometimes we’ll bring Evelyn in our bed with us for snuggles at night, and even in her sleep she’ll reach up to feel the face of which person is holding her.  It’s quite precious.

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Evelyn Faye has the most ticklish face.  Especially when a daddy with whiskers gives kisses.  She will giggle without fail.

When we were on vacation, we learned that Evelyn loved playing with the steering wheel.

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We also learned that she has pretty bad road rage.

Evelyn Faye 6 months

If something makes a crinkle noise, then it is Evelyn’s favorite toy.  This includes: packages of wipes, water bottles, a bag of M&Ms, the paper on the doctor table.

Evelyn Faye 6 months

Evelyn Faye 6 months

We’ve taken her swimming several times.  She is a water baby!  She loves to kick her legs and splash and splash.  She especially loves when she splashes herself in the face.  I don’t pretend to understand her logic.  I just know my heart explodes when I see her smiling and having fun.Evelyn Faye 6 months

Evelyn Faye’s personality is blossoming like an untended zucchini patch, in leaps and bounds.  She’s growing and changing so fast that I am out of breath trying to keep up with her.  I blink and she does something new.  Being a mother is the hardest job I’ve had.  I’m more tired than I know how to say.  But I am also more happy than I’ve ever been in my life.
 

 

 

 

Disneyland 2014

When Evelyn was 2 weeks old, I was having a rough go with Post Partum Depression.  Aaron decided that he was going to plan a Disneyland trip to give me something to look forward to and hopefully give me some light at the end of the tunnel.  I was excited, but at the time (Januray!!) June seemed forever away, and the thought of Evelyn being almost 6 months was unfathomable. But it came!  Here’s a quick look at the highlights of our holiday. The first ride we wanted to go on was Peter Pan’s First Flight.  Evelyn fell asleep in the Ergo. Disneyland

Disneyland 2014

Disneyland 2014 Grandma & Grandpa had fun taking Molly on the carrousel. Disneyland 2014 We had lunch at the Blue Bayou that afternoon, and the babies did great! Disneyland 2014 Small World, always a crowd favorite. Disneyland 2014

Disneyland 2014

Disneyland 2014 That evening we camped out on the Jolly Holiday terrace so we could watch the fireworks comfortably. 10366184_292956970881856_2779115173354217158_n

Disneyland 2014 And of course I wasn’t without a caramel apple cider, made with extra magic. Disneyland 2014 Evelyn’s reaction to her first time seeing/hearing fireworks was priceless. Disneyland 2014 Evelyn was such a happy girl in Disneyland.  It was the least fussy she had been all month.  She would take great naps in the park. Disneyland 2014

Disneyland 2014 DOLE WHIPS!  The happiest frozen treat on earth. Disneyland 2014 Evelyn’s favorite Disneyland souvenir…a wrapped spoon.  She loved the way it crinkled.Disneyland 2014   Disneyland This is just a fluke photo.  She was actually SO happy to be in the Ergo.  She loved being carried around and looking at all the people and things.  She barely fussed at all. Disneyland 2014 We didn’t bother with the stroller at all.  It was so much easier to carry Evelyn around.  The Ergo was incredibly comfortable, and bebe was the happiest.  Win win.Disneyland 2014 Disneyland 2014

Disneyland 2014

Disneyland 2014

Disneyland 2014

Disneyland 2014 We took a break from The Magic Kingdom for Aaron to show Evelyn and I his stomping grounds.  We drove all over Ventura county seeing the houses in which he grew up. Ventura County   He took us to this amazing strawberry stand down the street from one of his houses.  With no exaggeration, these were the BEST strawberries I’ve ever had in my life.  And I’m a strawberry snob, so I would know! Ventura County

Ventura County

Ventura The next day at Disneyland was Princess Day for us. Mirror mirror on the wall, who’s the cutest baby of all? Disneyland   Disneyland

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We took the girls to build a bear to make their twincess.

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Disneyland

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Disneyland

I will never be too old to leave today and enter the world of yesterday, tomorrow and fantasy.

Father’s Day 2014

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Dear Aaron,

Thank you for providing for our family.  I know you work hard every day to make sure we have a roof over our heads and food on the table.

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I’m a different person now because of the way you gently teach me to communicate.  You have taught me to honest and upfront with all of my feelings.  You have shown me compassion and care while I walk the dark road of depression.  You have given me confidence to talk about the things that are hard for me to talk about.

I know that you are going to give our children that kind of strength and support when they are struggling with personal trials.

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I can’t believe how brilliant you are.  You are gifted with logic.  I admire how smart you are.

I am more in love with you than ever before.

Fathers Day

I love watching you be a daddy.  You are so amazing with Evelyn.  Happy father’s day!

Evelyn Faye – 5 Months Old

Evelyn Faye 5 MonthsEvelyn, you took a huge leap in growth physically & mentally.  You are changing so fast.  You are so expressive and responsive.

Most of our month has revolved around you eating food.  I guess I forgot how difficult learning to eat was.

Evelyn Faye 5 months

The first week of solids was a very messy week!  2 baths a day!  But you have finally realized that it’s more fun to swallow food than take it out and rub it on your face.  You eat rice cereal, applesauce and bananas.  You have a very sensitive tummy, so we have had to go really slow at introducing new flavors to you.  We’re going to work on sweet potatoes this week.

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We went to visit our friends at Equity.  They all loved you so much.  They were your cheerleaders from day one.  Hong especially.  She ate gluten free with me for moral support and force fed me gummy prenatal vitamins.  She was fighting for you just as hard as I was.  More people love you than you’ll ever know!

Evelyn Faye 5 months

Another one of those people is Aunt Heidi.  You are extra special to her.  Every day she drowns you in kisses.  You always smile so big when you see her, and then you just stare.  She loves you so much.  She dances with you and sings to you.

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We took you to Janae’s orchestra concert.  You were happier as soon as I laid you on the floor, weirdo. :)

Evelyn Faye 5 months

You are absolutely a morning person.  You wake up with such a happy demeanor.  You are alert and so giggly.  I enjoy our mornings together!

Evelyn Faye 5 months

You actually LOVE getting dressed.  You’re starting to understand the sequence.  You’ll lift your arms up, or your legs, or pull your arms out.  You get so happy when we change your clothes.

Evelyn Faye 5 months

All month long you were still wearing all your 3 month clothes.  You’re a petit little baby, but the doctor isn’t worried.  You’re little, but you’re solid.  Lots of good muscle on you!

Evelyn Faye 5 monthsYou are getting so wiggly, that pictures on the changing table aren’t really working out anymore.

Evelyn Faye 5 months

Evelyn Faye 5 months

You only hold still in your sleep, and I’m okay with that!  I love how active and wiggly you are.

Evelyn Faye 5 months

I found a little fedora for you.  You definitely love wearing hats!  I think hats make you feel fancy :)

Evelyn Faye 5 months

Evelyn Faye 5 months

You’ve started to be aware of the dogs.  You always look for them in a room.  You turn to them, and you’ve started to reach for them.

Evelyn Faye 5 months

You’re still a little scary to Buster.  Indy seems to like you though.

Evelyn Faye 5 months

 

This month has given me some challenging days with you.  For several days on end you have been extremely fussy and upset.  You don’t purple cry (which I’m grateful for) but you fuss and whine all day.  There’s nothing I can do to sooth you.  And the more frustrated I get, the more frustrated YOU get.  You are very sensitive to my mood.  I’ve had many moments were I wonder if I am cut out for motherhood.  I feel completely unequipped for the job.  It gets discouraging sometimes.  There are times where I just cry because I don’t know what to do.  I’ve said out loud to you “I don’t know what you want!”  Which I know is illogical.  I know you can’t tell me what you want.  But I get so frustrated when I try every thing and none of it is what you want.  I just want to make you happy.  Being a mom is the greatest joy I’ve known, and even on the hard days, when I see your sweet little face I know that I have a forgiving Heavenly Father who is patient with my shortcomings as a mum.

Evelyn Faye 5 months

You have been using my baby blanket.  I know you don’t know the significance, but it seems like you have gotten really attached to it really fast.  When you fall asleep holding onto it, it melts my heart.  I can’t leave the nursery.  I sit and watch you sleep.

Evelyn Faye 5 months

When daddy is home, you two are inseparable.  (Even when you are catching z’s.)

Evelyn Faye 5 months

He is so good at playing with you.  He gets down on the floor and makes all kinds of sounds I’ve never heard an adult make.  You laugh at his dad jokes, which right now consist of blowing air on your face and in your ears.Evelyn Faye 5 months

One of my favorite things about your development, has been the discovery of your feet!  You are always reaching for them and often try to put them in your mouth.  It makes you giggle.   I’m sure you know how silly feet-in-the-mouth are.

Evelyn Faye 5 months

As you learn and grow, I learn and grow too.  Please be patient with me as I learn how to be your mama.  I’m still trying to figure out what works and what doesn’t work.  I’m trying to be patient with myself.  I promise that no matter how hard it gets I won’t throw in the towel.  I’m never going to be perfect, and I’m going to make a lot of mistakes.  But I’ll always love you.  And I’ll never forget what a true miracle you are.

 

Mother’s Day 2014

All my mama wanted for mother’s day was a picture of her, her babies, and their babies.

Mother's generation picture

You can only get Dylan to smile for so long…

Mother's generation picture

Grandma with her grandpups.

Mother's generation picture

We made cards for Evelyn’s grandmas.

Mother's Day Craft

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Even though she literally had no idea what was going on, she seemed to have fun being the human stamp.

Mother's Day Craft

Mother's Day Craft

Being a mom is the best thing I’ve ever been.  I’m looking forward to many more years of messy paint projects, crafts, and other Mother’s Day festivities.

Easters 2014 [in our little vintage trailer]

Easter 2014 was Evelyn Faye’s first vacation.

Vacation with a baby

It never crossed my mind how difficult vacation planning with a baby would be.  I was baffled at how many diapers I would need to pack.

Vacation with a baby

Vacation with a baby

We caravanned with the Crowders in our travel trailers to Southern Utah.  Baby girl did pretty well most of the drive, from what I was told.  The Xterra had to go in the shop last minute (the morning we left!) so I was pulling our trailer with Daniel’s car, while Aaron, Josh & Evelyn followed behind me.

Vacation with a baby

It was a little on the cramped side inside of Myrtle the Trailer, but no one seemed to mind.

Vacation with a baby

Uncle Joshky stayed with us in our trailer.

Vacation with a baby

Evelyn Faye phone home.

Vacation with a baby

She was an extra happy girl spending so much time with her uncles.

Vacation with a baby

Vacation with a baby

Matching hats & glasses with Papa.

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Vacation with a baby

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Vacation with a baby

I have a feeling that this is only the start of many memories and adventures.

 

 

4 Months

I’m a little late on posting this.  Life.

But we sure had a beautiful 4th month with little Ev.

You are the most reverent baby at church.

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The floor is your favorite place in the world.  When you are fussy, you’d rather be laid down on the floor.  You also eat on the floor.  You don’t like to be held too much.

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It is fascinating to watch you grow and learn.  You can hold your bottle by yourself while you eat.  Sometimes you let go and drop it, and you need help finding your mouth.  But you’ve made the connection that it’s food and it goes in your mouth.

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You are getting the hang of play time.  You reach for things and grab things.  You’ve made the mental connection that when you see something, you can reach for it and grab it and hold it.

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You are SO strong.  You can hold a “baby push-up” for about 30 seconds at a time.  Your development seems ahead of the curve in most aspects, based on the generic timelines that are published.  You are usually a couple weeks early than what is expected.

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Having a daughter is so fun.  We get to play dress up every day.  We’re lucky because we get so many of Molly’s hand-me-downs.  There’s never a shortage of clothes!

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You are so easy to take on outings.  Everyone loves you where we go.  You took your first trip to the motherland (IKEA).

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Me and grandma got brave and took you and Molly with us to get pedicures.  And everyone at the salon just gobbled you guys up!

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Sometimes we go and visit daddy during his lunch breaks.  And you are always SO happy to see him.  And he is even happier to see you.

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You give him the best snuggles in the world.  You don’t snuggle anyone half as good as you snuggle your daddy.  It is beautiful to see how much you love him.

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And even more beautiful, is how much he loves you.

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Dad was in a skeeball league, so we took you to practice.  And it was cute.

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Each day Buster inches closer and closer to you.

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You have wiggling down pat.

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Being your mama is the best thing I’ve experienced in my life.  My heart explodes with adoration for you Evelyn Faye!

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Dealing With Negativity

Dealing With Negativity

Dear Evelyn,

No matter how kind you try to be, no matter how much you try to please everyone, no matter how accommodating you think you’re being, it won’t be enough.  But it isn’t because you’re not enough.

There will be people who choose to be upset.  There will be people who choose not to like you.  There will be people who have the wrong idea about you.  There will be people who put you down.  There will be people who make you feel bad.

And it will suck.

It’s the hard part of life.

You’ll feel bad.  You won’t understand why.  You’ll be sad because you feel like you’ve tried so hard, and it wasn’t good enough.

These people might be friends.  They might be your siblings.  They might be coworkers.  They might be neighbors.

If you’re like me, you’ll take it personally.  You’ll want to retreat.  You’ll want to disappear because you don’t like the feeling of letting people down.  It might feel like too much to deal with.

You’ll hear people say negative things about you.  And you’ll think, “No!  They have the wrong idea!  They don’t understand the whole picture.”  And it hurts.  And it makes you sad.

But it’s part of life.  And you can’t change someone else.  You can’t change what people choose to think and believe.

There are things you have control over, and there are things you don’t.

You have control over you.  There is a lot of power that comes with that realization.

No one’s opinion of you matters.  If you are trying to be the best person you can be, then what else is there to do?

It’s so difficult to not take other people’s actions personally.  But the best thing to remember is to simply be kind.  Everyone is fighting a battle.  And most times when someone’s actions are negative toward you, it’s most likely because they are dealing with their own battle, and they are hurt.  The best thing you can do is to love.

If you let someone else’s negativity affect you, you are allowing your spirit to be poisoned.

So always remember, the best way to deal with negativity is to be kind and not take it personally.  Never give up on yourself.  You are enough.

Everything is always okay in the end.
So if it’s not okay, then it’s not the end.

I love you, and nothing you can do will ever make me stop loving you.

Love, Mum.

 

Happy Anniversary

The cutest love-babies I’ve ever seen…Happy Anniversary

Happy Anniversary

Happy Anniversary

Happy Anniversary

Happy Anniversary

Happy Anniversary

Married in the temple

It’s been a heckofa year.  365 more days in love.

To remember the year we ate way more chicken nuggets than we should have (thanks a lot, pregnancy):

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I’m glad I got to have your baby.  I’d do it a million more times.  Maybe.

I want to have your babies

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Thanks for the beautiful love Aaron Crowder.